I only have to drag my ass out of bed 12 more times to come here. That is starting to sound good. 

The panic has receded for the most part.  I am now looking forward to my time in Antigua (remind me of this when I whine).  I will miss Steve more than I can say but the trade off is my daughter will be in my arms forever in 1 month.  We all talk about how much easier this would be if we had an idea of when – it is true.  Now that I know when I’ll have her with me the anxiety has gone.  I’m just excited to know that in 1 month I will have her with me and never have to hand her back. 

My lists are out of control.  I have pieces of paper scattered everywhere – desk, purse, dining room table.  I’m making lists of things I need to pack, things I need to buy, things I need to take care of, and things I need to do before I go.  I have to get housing settled so that I can buy plane tickets.  And I continue to have so many questions.  Since I don’t know when I am coming home, do I buy a one way ticket and buy another one way when I am ready to come home?
Do most debit mastercards work in the ATMS in Antigua? And if I decide to bring cash, will the banks exchange it without hassle or do they also prescribe to the no wrinkled bills philosophy?

Do ALL landlords let you write a personal American check for your rent and/or electric bill?  (This seems bizarre to me considering the cavity search I have to submit to to write a check in my hometown these days.)
Someone said you can wash dishes in the water as long as it is hot and soapy and I dry them immediately.  What if I put a little big of bleach in the rinse water?  Would this kill whatever lives in the water?  Can you buy bleach in Antigua?

What about washing my hands?  They say the little water critters live on things, wet or dry.  If I wash my hands and then put them in my mouth, am I doomed?  If I brought a big bottle of hand sanitizer, would that be better than soap and water?

Am I being too paranoid about the whole water issue?

As you can tell, my biggest fear at this point is getting sick.  Caring for Sabrina while sick would suck but being sick in a foreign country while being a single mom would really suck.